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Wednesday, April 6, 2011

What are words - Chris Medina

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Just successfully transcribed this song :D surprisingly simple!

<33

Be My Little Angel.
[4:01 AM]

Thursday, April 8, 2010

There's so many ways to love you.
Got me like oh my gosh, I'm so in love.
I found you finally. <3

I've been thinking. This year is when everything counts and the last thing I want is to regret.

I just can't shake this feeling.
It's like a bullet and it's killing, killing me.

I previously had no idea how to articulate i really felt. I couldn't find the words to say but when I sat in front of the piano today, it just came to me. So listen to the song of my heart. (:

Be My Little Angel.
[5:53 AM]

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Finally.

I've come to a realisation. I do know what's bothering me after all I just never go to properly articulate it. And you know what it really doesn't matter. I know I knew that before I just didn't want to believe it. But well, seriously it doesn't matter.

I don't know if all I did was to set myself up for more hurt or what. But while previously I thought all I had to choose from was nothing and worse than nothing. I realised that my view was just too myopic. That wasn't the point of it all. It's not about what you expect to get from it really. It's just about doing it. That's what makes you feel better really and nothing else.

I really don't understand why people say what they say. And while I thought ignorance was bliss and that I was just better off not knowing, that's really not the case. While initially it was abit overwhelming and sudden I guess in the end while things may not look very right now, I'll be happy knowing that it'll be right in the end.

And that at least I was there to see it end perfectly.

I thought that I was at the losing end. That what I did just wasn't enough. And while I know I don't need it to be explicit, I just wanted a sign I guess. But you know what, I was just expecting too much.

Guerir quelquefois, soulager souvent, consoler toujours
Cure seldom, relief often, comfort always. Out of the many known conditions how many can we actually treat? Often, we spend the time giving symptomatic relief rather than treating the actual condition. And when we do treat the condition itself, we are merely augmenting and aiding the body.

Sometimes it's not about treating the disease but it's about treating the patient. And even then, it's not just the patient but everyone else around him. While it may be frustrating at times, just know that you've made a difference.

I guess, sometimes, I'm not sure if what I say was meant for you or whether it was meant for me. But I guess really, I'm pretty sure you'll be there.

어떡하죠?
Haha. Ask me again, for now I have an answer.
너라고?
Still can't say for sure. But please fix my bubble if it pops.

Defying Gravity

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
Cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!

Kurt <3

Be My Little Angel.
[6:21 AM]

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I actually don't really know what to think. I'm torn between two things and I don't know how to choose really. My heart tells me not to give up on one but I know for a fact that I can't do both. So how? I think everyone just aims to over-achieve. It's like being good at one thing just isn't enough anymore. Which makes me wonder if I'm good enough.

어떡하죠?
Well, I really don't know.
너라고?
I don't know either.

I have no idea why I just can't seem to sit still and focus and like study properly today. I really have no idea what's bothering me. Ok, I do have a rough idea but it's not like I can do much about it right? It's like everything's just a blur. It's like when you just wake up. You're half-asleep and you can't see a thing either cause you just can't open your eyes and even if you can you're not wearing contacts so not like it really matters anw. Everything's out of focus and you do roughly know that you have to get ready for school and all. But you do it all subconsciously. And by the time you're awake you realise you forgot something but damn it's too late to go back home to get it.

It's exactly that feeling.

Except it's not that simple. And while you'll eventually wake up in the end. I'm not sure I want to wake up just yet.

I'm really not even emo-ing. I know I should at least be a little affected by it but for some reason I'm just not sad about it. I have no idea how it ended up this way really. Which is what bothers me really. I don't know if I'm far too tired to think or too tired to care.

These are my confessions
Just when I thought I've said all that I can say..
I'm just tired and I don't know what to do.
If I'm gonna tell it, then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call.
Keeping silent's making my heart race
Thinking about it- my mind's all over the place
I'm so gone and I don't know what to do
But to give you part two of my confessions.

Which makes me wonder, who keeps the secrets of the secret keeper?

Be My Little Angel.
[7:22 AM]

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air, oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
If there was a way that I could make you understand

But how do you expect me
To live alone with just me?
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walk, I ran, I jump, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
With no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath but I survived
I don't how but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
To live alone with just me?
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

No more
Baby
There's no air, no air
No air, oh!

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

(No air)
(No air)
(No air)
(No air)

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air

<3

Be My Little Angel.
[5:58 AM]

Friday, March 12, 2010

It has been millions of years since man first learnt how to use tools,thousands of years since we've built the first civilisation, hundreds of years since the industrial revolution and tens of years since technology has progressed to what we have today. Man has undoubtedly achieved many things. However, man's actions has also drastically changed the natural world.

All we've been thinking about is growth and how to stimulate more growth. The last time I checked, the Earth isn't getting any bigger. There's only so many people we can fit in the world. While we try to solve the problems of global warming, changing climates and shortage of natural resources, we fail to understand that what we need is not more or better technology, but instead a new mindset. Sure, energy efficient cars are helpful. But this would only result in more people and twice as many energy efficient cars. In the end, if we don't stop growing we'll still face the same problems as before. It shouldn't be sustainable development it should just be sustainable. Instead of thinking of constant growth and nothing else, we should be focusing on adapting to the world. Adapting to the world's changing climate.

<3

Be My Little Angel.
[10:38 PM]

Friday, March 5, 2010

Grasping my hand tightly
Overwhelmed with fear
Overcome with emotions
Despite being unable to move and
Barely able to speak
Yet she continued to struggle
Each syllable harder than the last
.
.
.
she finally said

Couldn't save you from the start
Love you so it hurts my soul
Can you forgive me for trying again
Your silence makes me hold my breath
Oh, time has passed you by

Oh, for so long I've tried to shield you from the world
Oh, you couldn't face the freedom on your own
Here I am left in silence

You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven

I watched the clouds drifting away
Still the sun can't warm my face
I know it was destined to go wrong
You were looking for the great escape
To chase your demons away

Oh, for so long I've tried to shield you from the world
Oh, you couldn't face the freedom on your own
And here I am left in silence

You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven

I've been so lost since you've gone
Why not me before you
Why did fate deceive me
Everything turned out so wrong
Why did you leave me in silence

You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven

Be My Little Angel.
[8:26 AM]