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Sunday, August 30, 2009
hahahahah im on a major high. and i would like to think its cause of my mad spamming of chocolate. hehh ((: which is like totally causing a sugar rush. or maybe it was the coffee. whichever it is. im happy. and im so glad im so happy. ahahahahaha happy that im happy.
and like i dunno wth you did. [although i do sorta kinda wanna know what you did] but whatever it is. its awesome. you're so damn awesome. its like total 180 no 360 turn around. its amazing. its like. how in the world can such a thing happen overnight. hahahahaha. but im glad it turned out the way it did. if like i totally didnt emo my life away the past week i wouldnt have woke up and realised what i realised now. (: and its amazing. the feeling of being totally liberated. cause contrary to popular belief. i really dont feel a thing ok ! its like totally changed list cmon. although i guess there are some parts which i kinda miss. oh well. ((: its all good. hahaha awesome stuff.
ok i really shouldnt be blogging. i should like go look through wr. which towards the end of the editing. i was totally dying and brain dead and goneeeee. i swear its the lack of glucose to my brain. or so i would like to think. and the whole sian feeling and oh maybe cause i slept at 3 last night. hmmms. oh well. ((: im glad we're done with it. ladeedas.
and i swear the music playing totally influences my blogging wtshit. ytd was such a heartfelt song i just felt like i dunno. hahahaa.
k whatever. serious stuff. i really need to sit down and start studying econs. econs is such a i dunno i find it quite awesome i guess? its so totally rational and logical. but i always feel i dont study enough. like im not prepared enough for the test. and i cant say there's like ALOT to study like to the point that my brain will burst from trying to memorise it all. cause like. bio is wayyy heavier. but i feel more prepared for bio than econs when i study both the same amount. hmm oh well. must. do. well. for. econs. case. study. @____@
lol omg i just like so amused by wr. its like inconsistent. but its just so funny. its like we cant decide whether we want 2sf or 1dp for our percentages. or do we want full names or not for our interviewees. or is it park rangers or Park Rangers. or is it 1 out of 2 or 1 in 2. hahahahaa. and is visitor centre under engagement or enforcement or education. LOL. im just so amused. its so funny. but oh well. ((: i feel bad for going home early and not seeing through chapter 5. but then again i was half-dead and like gonna die alr.
anw i love my pw group. we're such awesome people. and our productivity is directly proportionate to the number of computers hahahaha. although today was half antisocial. im sure we use msn to discuss hahaa. oh well. lalalala. still we're so damn awesome. lalalalla. <3
haiz. omg. and please dont experiment. just because it wont affect me now. wtshit. cant it just stay like this. and not change. aiyoooo. WHAT DID YOU TELL HIM. hahahaha. i wanna know. O.O oh well. (((: grr. im hungry again. and my sugar high is like subsiding. booo. ladeedas.
Be My Little Angel.
[7:06 AM]
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Lately, ive been feeling really confused. and jing would prolly know why. and like. ive been thinking: why the hell am i so confused? and like honestly, i have no idea why. and like there's really no reason to. i think its just a passing phase. i dunno. and like. lately. its so weirdd. i would try and think through and like yes im over being confused. and then something else happens. and im confused again. blehhh. and i think right. i dont need all this. and im not even sure what i want. its amazing. its all just a big annoying mess.
i mean i keep telling myself. im a student. my job is to study and i shouldnt think about anything else. since like. if at the end of the day i dont get the course/uni that i want. then wouldnt that be worse? so ive decided i should focus on the things that matter. not saying that like other things dont matter. its just that i should worry about them later. (: speaking of which i really should be studying math OR bio OR econs OR chem or do my eom or sth. HAHA. so much for all the talk on focusing. blehh. whatever. this shall be a well-deserved break.
and lately, ive been questioning my decisions. why did i choose something. and like ofcouse i sorta know why. i mean like i hate making decisions for the very simple reason: if i regret it i wouldnt be able to handle the regret. i think that recently ive spent more time thinking of what i want to do rather than actually doing what i actually know i want and should do. but i dunno. there's just something that keeps me from saying what i want to say. doing what i want to do. feeling what i want to feel. and this is the exact reason why lately ive been wanting to just shut myself from the rest of the world. not cause i feel emo or want to be alone.
oh well on a more positive note. im really glad that i have my piano with me. its honestly the most beautiful instrument there can ever be. <3 and im glad that my transcribing skills have improved. hahaha. and biang can play the piano. which is simply awesome. if i could i would learn every instrument there is on the planet. hahahaa. extremely ambitious. but well. i would really enjoy it o.o speaking of which, i suddenly feel inspired. (((:
and hahaha ive been infected. with shine on-jet. hahahaa. rawrrr andreww. oh well. not that im complaining. songs have been stuck in my head. like omgosh insomnia was playing in my head during chem spa. which i think was really amusing hahaha. and then how you love me now was playing in my head during bio spa. and lately. tree hugger all cause of pei ling hahahaha. that song is just oh-so-cute !
gosh all this blogging is clearing my head. heh. which is a good thing. i think i need to organise my thoughts better. -nodnod- cause otherwise it'll give me a headache. kinda reminds me of what achia said. hahaha. about men and their waffle brains. how they compartmentalise everything. which ive got to admit. seems like a pretty good idea actually. makes sure one thing doesnt affect another. i have to say that i havent been able to think straight lately. and no i highly doubt its cause of the lack of glucose to my brain. but more cause of there's so much things going on. like promos. goshhh. i want to start studying. but its like with so much homework to clear. its not really very possible to start. and i know if i dont start soon. it'll be a little too late seeing as i have alot to study. [which also brings back to the point: i really should go back to studying instead of blogging] but blehhh. especially since i could have done wayyyy better for cts. >: (( not that im complaining cause like i was kinda surprised about econs hahaha.
hahaha i think its cause the song playing is just making me feel. i dunno. like blogging? or maybe its cuase i hardly ever blog anw. so now its just like word vomit of everything ive been wanting to say. k not everything. but generally.
random thought: i really want to play the piano nownownow. o.o
hahaha. oh awesome. i love kim jonghyun. he's kinda hot and sorta cute i guess? hahahaa. but i guess he really reminds me of someone. not that i have a thing for that person. just really reminds me of him that's all. hahahaha. especially in my dp. which seriously amuses me.
random thought: lately. everything ppl's been saying have been so err. i guess one would call it coincidental. but like i dunno think its just my brain trying to find connections. isnt that what the brain naturally does? or maybe im just thinking too much. but oh well. im happier now. muchmuch anw.
Be My Little Angel.
[12:22 AM]
