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Sunday, February 28, 2010
Lost Then Found
I'm staring at tears on the pages
Of letters that I never could write
Now I know love isn't painless,
But It's worth the risk, it's worth the fight
I'm playing it over and over
I wish that I could turn back time, baby
We were wrong, but we could be right
Why do we say things we can't take back
Why do we miss what we never had
Both of us fell to the ground
The love was so lost, it couldn't be found
Why do you tend to forget whose vain
I'm tired of crying at the sound of your name
Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy
Don't you want to be lost then found
Lost then found, lost then found
Love ain't the enemy
We could be lost then found
Empty glasses on the tables, echoes fill these rooms
The memories go where we go, they're like the suitcase that you never lose
If the good lord's eyes upon me
I swear to make things right
Whatever we lost, I know we can find
Why do we say things we can't take back
And why do we miss what we never had
Both of us fell to the ground
The love was so lost, it couldn't be found
Why do you tend to forget whose vain
I'm tired of crying at the sound of your name
Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy
Don't you want to be lost then found
No words can come without (lost then found)
Can't stop the rain, I wish you could take it back (lost then found)
But it's too late, it's too late
Why do we say things we can't take back (why do we say)
Why do we miss what we never had
Both of us fell to the ground
The love was so lost, it couldn't be found (it couldn't be found)
Why do you tend to forget whose vain
I'm tired of crying at the sound of your name
Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy
Don't you want to be lost then found(don't you wanna be)
Lost then found, lost then found
Oh, love ain't the enemy
We could be lost then found
No words can come without
Can't stop the rain, I wish you could take it back
But it's too late, it's too late
We could be lost then found.
While we had previously thought that it would never work out, we've been together for so long, we've gotten so used to each other why wouldn't it work? Now, finally, there really isn't anything to fear.
<3
Be My Little Angel.
[7:21 AM]
Sunday, February 21, 2010
What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done now.
While there are people who appear to care so much that they point out all the faults; all that is tearing us apart, ironically enough, they really are the ones who care so little that they don't even bother trying to mend whatever it is that is left between us. That they dont even bother trying to understand the implications of their actions on us. Nor are they open to change.
Well... maybe they are open to change. Just not the right kind of change.
It is saddening to see that they are well, 'catalysing violent reactions'. Instead of instilling hate or spreading ideas of change or mutiny wouldnt it just be better to focus our energy on something more positive? Hate only brings about more hate so why bother. I guess what bothers me the most is that they think that they can do a better job. If you think so, then go right ahead and try.
It's really quite tiring to try and reconcile both sides. Which is why, people should stop talking to a third party. Just talk to each other face to face. Get it over and done with. It was ridiculous to even have thought that all this would just tide over. That people would just calm down and start thinking rationally again. It didnt occur to me that it would ever come to this point. That the divide would get so evident and unbearable that people would even lock each other out.
Or at least think of doing so.
And maybe really, delusionaries escape reality via a suspension bridge. I really dont see what the issue is. Fine, maybe there are a few valid points here and there but in general there is no real reason or at least no compelling reason for outright change. Let's just learn to live with each other and stop complaining. Nobody's perfect anyway and it's ridiculous to expect anyone to be.
Turned into my worst enemy
You carry hate that I don't feel
It's over now, what have you done?
What have you done now?
You know what. This should just be seen as a test for all of us. If we survive through this, we emerge better and closer and maybe that's what we really need.
I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But, have we really? I know I've said this before. But seriously, why do we always tend towards the same topic once we've run out of things to say. It's like there's a need to revive the conversation with something so unexpected and most likely untrue. Why bother thinking of something that really, at the current state of maturity that most of us are at, is too complex for us to fully grasp. Like I said before, why bother contemplating something you know you can't commit to. It's much more beneficial to focus on something we know we can manage. While we are still young and impressionable we should instead focus on self-realisation, self-actualisation- finding out truly the kind of person we are, what we believe in and how we intend to live our lives from here on. But no, we fill our heads with such childish, immature and petty things. Do we really come to school just for this? Surely, this can't be the real reason people come to school right ! Well, if that's the case, then clearly I've been going to the wrong place.
I'm just really tired and disappointed right now.
Be My Little Angel.
[7:11 AM]
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
The girl in the bubble completely at peace despite all that's around her.
And she wonders if she should continue living in her little bubble and remain peaceful or pop her bubble and try to make things right. All things considered, it would be irresponsible for bubble girl to continue living in her bubble. But then again, someone should at least stay happy. why not bubble girl? o.o
On something completely unrelated. ok maybe not completely. After much thought, and i mean ALOT of thought. I have once again found my motivation to study. Not saying i didnt have any. It's more of I have once again realised the goal I intend to achieve and why I want to achieve it and this is really truly the very reason why I refuse to believe that life is just this. There's definitely much more to it and much more we can do to better the lives of those around us. And at this point I thank God for being alive and healthy and for each day that comes. Which makes me think, really how little all the bickering we do and the complaining and whining is compared to the big picture. I mean like surely there'll be a point in time when we get fed up and angry at each other but that still doesnt mean we should hate each other.
Hate's a really strong word it shouldnt be abused. It's like love. If there's pizza love and real love. Then there should also be pizza hate and real hate. and even then, it's sad to hate. -nodnod-
Personally, i think that it's like a game of touch rugby. The playmaker tells you to make a move on the left link and you follow. The move fails. Who do you blame? Yourself for bad execution? The playmaker for a bad call? The point is, the moment's over, so it failed, ok whatever there's still 5 touches left. Make the most of it and play the game like you've never played it before. Isn't that what really matters? I dont think we're looking at the big picture. This isnt going to make it any more conducive for any of us. The hostile environment- I just dont like it. at all.
And while bubble girl wants to remain at peace in her little bubble. Maybe bubble girl's also too powerless to pop out of her bubble.
On a separate event, first and foremost whilst some might argue that it isnt my fault. I feel the need to apologize and for that, I'm sorry. While I can't find it in me to tell you that personally- I'm really sorry. Although arguably, you would have realised it yourself. Perhaps the way it was phrased could have been better then maybe it wouldnt have hurt as much.
I think that while it is important to seek knowledge, what's more important is how you use it. Just because you can doesnt necessarily mean you should. There are really some things that should be kept secret and not told to the world. I think people should at least have that decency to allow for some personal space.
And in the words of a true biology lover: 'it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place'- the basis of the Red Queen Theory. Well, people change. Evolution has proven that for a fact, and we'll keep changing. What's important is that we change for the better.
I'm glad you've reached your state of clarity. Because honestly, now is not the time to think about such things. While it is important, why consider something you know you cant commit to? I think people dont realise the importance and the responsibility that comes with it. It takes alot out of you and the amount of time needed to invest. It really is actually a big thing.
Besides this, I have new found respect for a particular person. Even though we do talk often, I never really got to know you like I do now. It really is quite eye-opening. I never really considered things that way. I guess it really did made me realise that maybe the things we once thought were right and acceptable may not always be right. It really has given me new perspective on how life should be and how people should behave.
And with all this, I have new found strength and determination to overcome whatever that may stand between me and my dreams.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Even though academically, it was a pretty wasted weekend, I can confidently say that it was still extremely productive. (:
And bubble girl will sleep happily today.
Be My Little Angel.
[5:28 AM]
Saturday, February 6, 2010
mehh. ok i actually forgot i had a blog O: hahahaaha. oh shit i think sth's wrong with me today. after trng went to rg. and like omg i havent been there in EVERRR. and like. totally completely crashed and sprawled all over the hall floor heh. and i stole shin's CAM. whooo. and spammed photos. and like omg its actually really fun hahahaha. but it got taken away from me T____T boo. and omg im angryyyy PART AS DAOED ME. grrrr.
and yuxiang i <3 cloud. but im sorry sephriloud??? so horrible sounding pleaseee. ok i admit today i was abit crazy and all. but im not as crazy as you. there is no way cloud is everrr leaving zack for you. get it in your head. clack forever ! omg so fangirl-ish. o.o
and omg sleepwalker is stuck in my head @____@ im gonna wake up tmr with this song in my head omggg. but he's pretty <3 hahahaha.
shit i think my brain really goneeeee today. omg i just realised vday is coming ! O: O: O: yayy GERBERAS -hinthinthinthinthint- hahahahha. they're the prettiest flowers in the world. to me anw. and well they're inexpensive o.o hmmm i shall go poke people and remind them that vday's coming. yayyyy. omg i need to like go shopping soon. hmm mb i'll go with biang next thurs lol.
<33
Be My Little Angel.
[7:06 AM]
